Still Stupefied

Its been 4 years since I came to America.
On this day, in the year 2005 my flight landed at San Francisco Airport... and there to receive me were Anu-Ali-Shriya, Raji-Raju and Ram.

They bought flowers too.

I remember being dazed and numb. Not because of the United States, but because of the flood that preceded my departure from Bombay.

This is a good time to pause and reflect on myself... don't you think?

Since 2002, life has been a roller coaster ride... Not necessarily a fun ride... for a good part I think I didn't have any safety braces on. There were instances when I am sure I had nothing to hold on to either. I suppose I've done okay ... all things considered.

Here are some of the things stewing up inside me ...

I believe ...
in Destiny


I realise ...
... that even the closest of friends need reassurance and reminders of your love for them
... that a lot of problems can be completely avoided if people could just shut up
... that if you feel miserable for no apparent reason, it usually just means you're hungry, or sleepy, or tired, or you don't like being with whoever you're with or wherever you are. So eat/ sleep/ rest/ excuse yourself and go!
... that it always helps to be able to distinguish between malice and stupidity

I've learned...
... that sometimes its easier to get by, if you don't ask too many questions
... that if you cut yourself up to fit in with everyone ... theres very little left of you at the end of the day
... that to be happy... you need to be passionate about something

I hope...
... that some day God's going to talk back and offer an explanation
... that some day all of this will make sense

I know...
... that I currently am in desperate need of chocolate and a hug.